Nuisances and Heartbreak

new changes

2012-01-23T10:49:00.000-05:00

http://acarbonrose.blogspot.com

Operation Smile

2011-10-15T13:46:00.003-04:00

Operation smile pt 1 has arrived. I really like portrait style of photography, because it was what I originally started out with. It feels great to actually look back, and be satisfied and overwhelmed with your work. I had a feeling of vacancy for a while, about the pictures I was taking but I feel amazing with this.

Thank you for the people who were willing to be featured, and more coming soon! - Sade.

What you need.

2011-10-02T02:50:00.006-04:00

More pics from previous post.

Hello! Thank you for this steady stream of blog views this past year. Yesterady I had a shoot, with one of my close friends, Lin. We expererimented back and forth with black light, for the majority of it, It created a cool toned water vibe. She also somewhat looked like a vampire, haha. Well Enjoy! and I will be posting more/ a possible follow up.
Peace and blessings!, sade.
Visit the flickr!, http://www.flickr.com/photos/sade_ayinde/

This second picture is actually quite interesting. It was taking under black light, however I converted it to b&W for this because of the proximity and intensity of this shot.

Rosh hashanah

2011-09-27T13:51:00.003-04:00

Happy rosh hashanah, for any Jewish viewers! I went to Baltimore for a birthday dinner. After dinner, we were walking around and we snapped a couple pics. As I was walking, I realized how much I grew to like Baltimore. As a resident of the east coast, going to the inner harbor is just something you're used to. For some reason, that night, I grew to love it. When I was walking down the street I noticed a group of security guards on the opposite street, just relaxing and observing. Ahead of me, I heard a soulful tune, which turned out to be a jazz player playing his trumpet. I really love being in places where there is always something happening and it's lively. University might be calling!

OPERATION $MILE.

2011-09-10T11:27:00.008-04:00

hahlo, greetings from the east coast~
Adjusting to school life, which hasn't been that hard of a transition. It's a simple thing of doing, I've stopped trying to place 'try' into my vocab. Currently, I have a project that is in the work; partnering with a subgroup of the Organization OPERATION SMILE at my school with one of my younger colleagues. For clarification, Operation SMILE is a non profit organization that funds for children that are born with cleft lip/palate the opportunity to smile again. Please stick around for that, definitely don't want to miss it. Here are some images, that got my wheels turning.

V photo by Carlitos Galvan

I'm just glad I keep getting blessed with opportunities as such. God is so good to me, because though I fail him daily, he's always there.
peace and blessings ya'll, sade.

Humble Beginnings.

2011-08-23T13:44:00.006-04:00

Hello!
I wanted to write a reflection.

My school vacation is coming to an end, and I have to get ready for school. At this point I'm a mixture of emotions of nervous, excited, annoyed, ill-prepared, driven. So many things go through my mind. I'm praying to God just to give me the strength to endure this year, and to actually succeed. I pray that no weapons formed against me shall proper, and for him to guide me to wherever I'm destined. -
just to think back,I glad I've grown over the year(s). But I will say I'm not perfect hahaa, not even close. God bless,y'all.

Take a leap of faith.

2011-08-03T22:55:00.006-04:00

I decided that this was the best platform to talk about a foundation that is very near to my heart. I actually advocate for this at my school, started a club, wrote a speech about it, and even collaborated with another student to have a documentary shown.

This is what I wrote on my facebook page

I was given this opportunity to be in the running,reluctancty, I was to pageants, I realized that this is probaly the best opportunity to let everyone know about the foundation, http://invisiblechildren.com/, which advocates and helping to endthe use of child soldiers in Uganda and Democratic republic of Congo, please help me in this fight against humanity,I need to $995.00, spread the word, thank you and God bless.

I honestly just pray to God, that whatever he has brought me here for that I continue to shine in his light.

new look, new feel, new vibe

2011-07-06T21:12:00.005-04:00

I'm back from my un-official hiatus. Getting prorities together and all.
SO HOW YA'LL FEEL ABOUT THE NEW LAYOUT?
Good vibes, haha. I love it actually. Took time to process but all is well.

The main header is featuring Trey 'Stupidsteaz' Miller of the Hip-Hop Group Kids Without A Cause

Kids Without A Cause tumblr
The photoshoot I had with the group is long overdued, so def check the flickr and give some feed back, much love!

Emotional Impact; eyes are the window to the s0ul.

2011-07-04T22:38:00.002-04:00

I've been 'studying' a lot of pictures that show emotions.

In the upcoming year, I really want to focus on these type of shots. So much can be said with little actions. Just an eyebrow there or centering on the lense can make an image that much more powerful.

now these photos can make a jaw drop. I'm in love with the black(low-key) background. I plan on doing a shoot like the one on the left with a muse, I just need to perfect it. Perhaps with several maybe?

Frais

2011-07-04T22:30:00.003-04:00

ah, hello?I hope all is well. I put up a new layout, literally took hours, I still have some tweaking to do, none the less content. I think this new layout, also included me rebooting all my posts, They were just very carelessly done. I have just been approached with another blessed opportunity that includes my photography. I just am thrilled, but in the back of my mind, I think " Wow God. You keep watching over me, and doing all these great things while I proceed to ignore you". I'm sure it hurts having your children not speak with you, if so, seconds at a time. I need to prioritize in a way that is achievable, I thank God for tribulations and achievements he has brought me to, honestly.
Well that is it for now. Hope you all have are having a blasting summer~

Sade

2011-06-10T17:57:00.003-04:00

I feel as though, it has been such a while since I have written a good quality post. First off, I would like to apologize for the absence. I don't like simply posting pictures and leaving.
What has been consuming me. ah.
that internet sigh alone.lol
hm. Trying to almost catch time. There are the days when I'm waiting for the end of the day and there are days when I can't grasp what's happening.
I wonder what would happen if everyone just did something like this. Sit down and just breathe. For a second.
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on a latter note (grmmr?); How is everyone?
Cherish everyday
"For he who doubts is like a wave of the sea driven by the wind" James 1:6

God bless, Sade

i'll leave with a teaser

2011-06-10T16:01:00.003-04:00

http://flickr.com/photos/sade_Ayinde/ <-- go for more

We all try.

2011-05-13T20:33:00.004-04:00

I photographed a close friend of mine, Makeda (MUH-kUH-DAh)
I absolutely loved this shoot, from the location, to her lovely oufit changes, to her personality. I am very excited to venture on, and do more these shoots.
Enjoy, and God bless.
_Sade

I am because you are.

2011-04-09T20:16:00.003-04:00

I've been looking forward to this shoot for a while. First off, I would like to thank everyone for the blog love and support I have been getting lately. This shoot was inspired by inspirations from everywhere and my personal life. Don't be shy to comment on your interpretations. Thank you, and God bless.

2011-03-10T05:41:00.001-05:00

I took this photo two days ago. The skies were just so beautiful. I love taking pictures of sunsets. I love taking portraits and photojournalistic things, but sunsets are right up there.

2011-03-05T12:43:00.001-05:00

new things coming up on the blog.
watch out.
trust new things will be arising. sorry for the delay and slow.
projects shall be continuing.
leaning towards launch of the website.
stay tuned.

I search for peace in your eyes, but their as empty as paradise.

2011-03-05T11:51:00.001-05:00

I haven't really blogged in a while. I've been listening to the artist blu; not for a while, I recently discovered this guy, about two weeks ago.
and I'm glad I did.
I am just fairly happy that I discovered this guy because his music is just amazing. His song dancing in the rain is one that I've repeated for a while.
Dancing in the Rain

Marcela.

2011-02-21T09:41:00.001-05:00

Latina reigning from the cities of Colombia, speaks her mind and doesn't shy away from the camera.
She always happens to be a dear friend of mine, enjoy. :*

How not to get discouraged.

2011-02-20T18:06:00.001-05:00

Don't feed into the hype.
yeah i get it. people will reckless in what they say.
but you can't go on carrying that burden while they're going, living their lives.

2.8.10

2011-02-08T18:02:00.002-05:00

Blog later.

2011-02-05T21:39:00.000-05:00

It has been such a while since I have been blogging.
I've been so busy. I got my ge x5.
I thank God for life. I'll blog a proper post later.

let's begin shall we?

2010-12-24T04:21:00.005-05:00

I enjoyed doing this shoot. There shall be definitely more of these coming.

there's some hesitation in your replies.

I had a blast working with model Lauren, she got more comfortable as the shots progressed and soon she was shooting our her own ideas.
tata for now

Flickr account

sneak peak @ this weeks photoshoot.

2010-12-22T19:40:00.000-05:00

I love photographing people.
I have more projects in the works.
gotta get the flickr account up and running,stay tuned.

2010-12-17T17:37:00.001-05:00

I've been getting inspiration and drive a lot more. I just need to stop being so hard on myself. It's nothing but a demotivator. For several days now, I've been writing on my hand the phrase, 'do the work, its easy.'

and its been helping me. I definitely have been slipping in my bible reading and all that. But I def have not lost that touch, because no matter how many times or how hard I try to run away God is always there. I'm glad about that, doesn't matter if I let him down or not he's still there waiting to catch me.

"[..]clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity."

Colossians 3:12-19

The missing piece.

2010-12-04T16:48:00.000-05:00

A past classmate of mine just passed away.
I am even more motivated to help others. This is really difficult.
she was such a sweet girl.

2010-11-27T11:10:00.000-05:00

I have so many things clouding my thoughts and plans that I have. I'm really interested in getting involved and helping others, and I really want to start a self esteem group in my school, and I have a world aids day project that I have in mind, it all needs to come together.

5 things I'm greatful for today.
1.Faith/Drive
2.A good conscious
3.Oprah's tv special based on graitude
4.Good People
5.Place to live.

I need positive people and to be in a positive light.

2010-11-24T09:47:00.003-05:00

I think I'm done with the whole one-sided friendship thing.
I'm need to pray.

5 things: grateful for
1)God
2)Breath
2)wisdom passed down from generations

2010-11-19T20:59:00.001-05:00

feeling of gratitude.

2010-11-19T20:41:00.001-05:00

you know that feeling when it just seems like one thing just puts a damper on your whole day?
then you realize that your better than this.
I had that feeling for a minute, then I just saw something that lifted my spirits. I'm glad I'm alive to see and breathe.
and I have all these new pictures I took.
I think this whole picture taking thing, is an outlet.
To escape certain things, and just have a breather. I love it when I'm looking through the lense of a camera, and I see the image focus before It snaps the shot. Its just. nice.

dont act like you dont understand.

2010-11-19T18:25:00.003-05:00

I took pictures around the school.

its been a while.

2010-11-19T17:55:00.004-05:00

but im back on my blogging tip.
def a lot more photography on my mind. I want to do more. I just love it. and I love just the aspect of everything.

on to the pictures I took.

change

2010-11-03T18:41:00.002-04:00

This week has been less than exciting.

pictures of leaves and trees. Am I a professional ? no Am I learning under guidance? yes

merci plus Dieu, tu sont la lumiere.

2010-10-22T17:27:00.000-04:00

Been keeping myself busy lately. I think I want shorter hair.
I feel like I hide behind this longer hair. mhmf.

This upcoming monday, our schools wearinng all pink to support Breast Cancer Awareness Day.
I'm so happy because I spent at least three hours afterschool the other day, making a mammoth banner telling people to wear pink and all that.
I didn't know there were so many people who were affected with breast cancer in the school.
Empathy is shared.

I'm learning to love myself before anyone else.

2010-10-17T19:53:00.001-04:00

and it feels good.

thoughts

2010-10-17T09:34:00.000-04:00

I need to start painting. and start a sketch.

Abbreviated Dreams and Extended Nightmares

2010-10-10T20:04:00.012-04:00

It's the tenth of October, The lords' year of 2010. I honestly don't know why but I felt compelled to blog. hmmf
Well, I know what I want to happen for the poetry night I wrote about earlier. I figured out how I want the mood to be felt and everything. I still have to work on the pronunciation and tone but everything else seems good.
I was watching some videos earlier and christianity and talking to God, I don't know if this is the solid reason but for some reason I'm rather excited for school tomorrow. Maybe it's the outfit, and red lipstick I have planned. Probably God.
The music artist Jin is religious not too mention an awful cutie.

-My ipod is completely dead, and I'm lacking my Nas and Damian Marley fix. Not too mention my lack of Nujabes. -_-

I took at least 10 pictures for this date occasion.

jk, is my counting off? I think so.

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ce matin

2010-10-09T06:23:00.003-04:00

My mind has been at an effervescent pace of thoughts. hmmf.
There is so much thought processing going on. its a good thing. I love this feeling. this feeling of euphoria. in a sense.
- This drawing is one in my sketchbook, I'm not sure if I will finish it. I kind of like it not being finished.-
Fall is coming.I'm excited for the leaves to change color, gasp, my eyes will get very excited.

Mon professeur du Francais a eu l'assignment pour notre. C'est un poeme contest. Je suis excited parce que, I picked a poem about Haiti (eye ee tee) et mon professeur derniere was from there, my stage set and everything is going to be immaculate. welll not exactly.lol
more like a stool and a stand maybe a backdrop behind it. yes definitely a backdrop. blog later when my mind is collected.

avance l'ecole

reflexion de la semaine.

2010-10-01T22:21:00.003-04:00

no matter what I do, out of everything that I've gone through I can't let guys in. It's an automatic switch. My counselor was talking to me about how sometimes you learn unconsciously through other people in and out of your life. Which would probably explain my nature.

quick thought.

2010-09-23T20:44:00.002-04:00

I just got an offer to go to new york this saturday to help with a show. aka photog opportunities.
however I have an obligation to help decorate with homecoming. and the plans coincide.

man.

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^^ reflection of the night

I never talked about homecoming. Well, I went earlier to my school to decorate and all and then I watched the football game with some friends and all. and I got all giddy and excited. to wear this fancy dress, and I danced the night away. Not gonna lie, some of the songs were ehh. but all together looking back it waas good, but next time opportunity presents itself, I think I would still go.

'love what you do, and do what you love.'- Charles Hamilton

2010-09-22T21:03:00.000-04:00

^ I went to chipotle with friends after a club meeting (Qdoba was too far). Vegeterian burritos are naht that bad, I couldn't even finish al of it though. haha

Spirit week is this week. I legit think the subject of art is on the back burner. I'm just not inspired by it anymore.
I think it's because I don't like to learn the basics of it, because then it's not fun anymore. It's just something you studied up on. uggh. and I know the only reason I took art 1 was to follow on with photog 1, but things didn't work out in my way.

Well, I'm taking pictures for spirit week, joined photog club afterschool. My excitement when I laid my minature fingers on the nikon d90 was beyond jubilance. Complete awh over the amazing capability of the camera and imaging. good news: my dslr camera might be given to me in the duration of this year, I shall continue to pray.

Tomorrows theme is celebrity day can't wait till i see people and take pictures. I've been working on filling in the space between people in pictures.

xx stay blessed.

reflections deepens ones soul

2010-09-19T19:12:00.000-04:00

Trees are so beautiful. Just the detail and uggh. It's like God just reached down and made artwork into every layering of each branch.

I went to church last week. -(mind you, two weeks before that week, I hadn't gone in about 4-5 months.)
Romans 1:16.
This verse discusses about how I shouldn't be ashamed of our religion and all. Spoke Volumes to me.
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Church this week was ridiculously eye opening. I will forever have a connection with my father, crazy what assurance and faith does to you.

Vegfest '10

2010-09-12T16:44:00.005-04:00

Headed out to DC for the weekend with a good friend and basked in a Vegan Haven aka VegFest. 'Twas really funn. :)
Def got my head out of pointless thoughts, and got some things together.

- I never knew there were so many good tasting options of meat-less products for vegetarians. I usually just stick to my vegetables and tofu, but I had some really good sausage samples and other meatlike things, that had absolutely no meat and there were delicioussssss.

I think there should be a falafel cafe in my area. these were too good to pass up and I had to indulge.

&there should also be an ethiopian cafe.

I'll be sure to attend next year.

2010-09-09T15:58:00.000-04:00

I feel myself slipping away as time goes by. sigh.

I was walking with my mum and we saw this fellow resting in paradise.

My little cousin dozing off.

My friend let me have this. cameras- The more the merrier.

!

2010-09-06T08:09:00.009-04:00

I've been noticing myself to not care as much about materialistic things. I'm not saying I'm completely carefree or asceticism, if you will. However I just see myself not caring as much about money ? anymore.
I got twenty dollars two days ago, and when I went to church with a friend I gave that money away. Others' wold that's just doing the right thing. However I know that if I had that amount of money, about a year ago I would have been kept it in my savings towards my f21 shopping fund. hmm
.::. just thoughts.

Currently:Awake

2010-09-05T00:37:00.014-04:00

{♥}

If I could draw out my mind it would be in a plethora of jumbles. With pencil notes written on paper of things to remember and do, blank canvases, magazine clippings for inspiration, tubes of paint, and a dslr camera.

-This sounds more like the state of my room than my mind minus the jumbles part, and the dslr camera (teardrop for my yet to be given GEx5)

I took some pictures today. I'm surprised I even had the time. My mind is racing a mile a minute with numerous ideas I have for sketchbook pages for my upcoming art class. I'm really enjoying the class. The people seem a bit more secluded however, I'm sure / I hope they will loosen up. aggggh, just thinking about the ideas I have gives my mind a mini-high.

The first pair of pictures, was my brain food. lool. Just boiled Spinach, with come asian (spicy!) chili sauce, and natural peanuts.

alright these pictures here.
The fire department came around my neighborhood because I think one of the main pipes broke (grmmr?) and it might have caused a hazard? I'm not sure but they were inspecting a lot and brought out several trucks and they were checking other houses to make sure no one was at danger.
ugggh, Firemen to me are beautiful. Just because your willing everyday, to give up your life to someone else that you don't even know. *applause*
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I tested out my skills on Bokeh. (For those not knowing it's a style of photography, in which it's usually a closeup of lights giving them a blurred effect.) It's alright, good for first shoot. I guess.

xx I'm honestly craving the moistest best chocolate cake. I have flour but I'm scared I'll mess up the receipe. Klondike bars will do for now. -_-

a little part of my soul gets happy when I see this picture.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/8574948@N08/759008487/

Procrastination gives you something to look forward to.

2010-08-26T22:46:00.002-04:00

aggh. School starts in a few days. I have yet to finish my ap government book, which is beyond muy importanto, parce que J'ai un examen le jour deux! et J'ai yet etudier, Je besoin avoir mon esprit clear. T_T

-I rant in spanglish/french sometimes -_-

I went to the local grocery store with my mum to get a few things before the school year, and a lot food for my personal lunch packing needs (there are very few options for vegetarians @ my school.) And she wanted to get some seafood for herself, and she settled for some live lobster. I'm not sure if it was any worse because there was an obvious frozen option, but she wanted it "fresh". Poor babies, The seafood butcher (?) just put one in a pot and it was broiled to it's death. hmmf, I shouldn't be too sad, because I guess it was going to happen anyway.

My siblings are practicing their letters, it's the cutest thing to see them feel so accomplished after the finish a letter. And their expression doesn't change after the keep writing the same letter, it's just comical.

Eat, Pray, Love Wishlist.

2010-08-21T11:30:00.007-04:00

Before the movie came out, or I had heard of the book 'Eat, Pray, Love' , I read this amazing book from the 60's, about a national geographic journalists' trip across the pacific islands, and ever since I've always to visit these immaculate places.

x The book is called Isles of the South Pacific, its by national geographic.
its a great read, it has the most amazing photography, I've seen in such a long time.
You can buy it here.

Rarotonga
It's such a small atoll (not much of an island), I really wanna visit, or even live here.
Life just seems so simple.

New Calendonia;
I keep picking super simple places, I don't really want a lot of hubbub.

India
I know life is not so simple here, but I definitely want to just experience it. And visit the slums, and donate my time, clothes, and knowledge there.For some reason,even though its last on the list, India appeals to me more than any other of these countries.

Merci pour le gesture.

2010-08-20T08:30:00.002-04:00

Today. Today was alright, it's still the morning, so I guess it could turn around. Well, I went running today, and decided to go uphill that surely gave me a workout.
My immune system feels a lot better, I must add. Haven't gone running in a few weeks so that might be why.

x For some reason I'm not as down as I was about the approaching school year, I think I became enthusiastic when I realized I got my schedule, and I have art every single day, so that might've made it a lot better. actually a lot better.
I was looking at this artist Abdi Farah, his works just amazing. It's just so jaw dropping, especially his piece about basketball players that were in a dancers' pose, featured on Bravo's tv show work of art. amazing.

xx You know what I think is sad?
How the Tsunami happened in Pakistan happened but the media isn't making a big deal out of it? Not to compare tragedies, but I do recall when the Earthquake in Haiti struck and everyone was pouring out money and help (including me), but when it comes to a possible terrorist nation, not many are drawn to the ordeal.

"If you don't love yourself, how the hell are you gonna love somone else?" -RUpaul

2010-08-15T11:00:00.002-04:00

I've been thinking about this quote a lot. I feel like it relates to me, because last year I was basically on a
quest to find a boyfriend. I was just scoping out every single guy, and thinking the possibility of us lasting together.
Desperate or non judgmental, I don't know what to call it!
Well anyways, I realized that a person honestly has to love themselves before they even think about trying to make it work with another human being, because we can't have insecure people in a relationship that you want faith in. If you don't have faith in yourself, how are you suppose to have faith in the relationship.
x They both go hand in hand, ya know?

bonjour a demain.

2010-08-10T06:25:00.003-04:00

for non french speakers, that means hello tomorrow. who knows if that's grammatically correct since I'm only fluent in french a 3 years. but annywaays :)

Its so earrrrlyyy, but i couldn't sleep so here we are.
Is it just me or do you feel awkward when you see couples make out? And I think it's absolutely adorable when they're established old couples. but when its new love, and I feel like everyone can tell the difference. hmm, one of my friends thinks it's hot when she sees anyone make out. interesting..

That to be is the downside of new love for me.
but there are times when I see new couples and I'm absolutely just love that factor of not knowing what's going to happen next and just going into something.

tata for now
sade

Beautiful Gesture

2010-08-09T06:34:00.002-04:00

Sometimes I question myself and wonder if the reason I'm single because of my feelings. I keep my guard up 14/7 out of the week. I might be a commitment phobe or maybe it's that I've been hurt in the past so badly I refuse to let anyone in. I was watching tv the other day and the actress Drew Barrymore was talking about love, and she was discussing how most people are reluctanct to falling giving their heart away because it holds the most pain, but it's also a resiliant piece and can give the most affection. hmm, pretty sure she stated it better.

ah, she look so happy. I long for another nude top like that.
Grazia